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Uhm... yeah. This is my diary. By reading this, you might understand the ways of my twisted mind and personality(s). You might. You might as well say "She's insane!". Doesn't matter.
I start with my documentation at the age of 10 years back in 1990, because I guess it all started then. I'll make a few entries once in a while, catching some main events of the past decades of my life. These are rewritten excerpts of my diaries - not my real diary entries. Intimate details or very personal thoughts are left out. This is supposed to give you an impression of my life in general. Not a self-analysis to let you know every little detail about me.

FRIENDS ONLY:
Some entries are for friends only. These are mostly past entries from my youth or private entries. If you want to read those, just let me know - I'm showing this only to those people who are really interested.

I don't mind if you like it. Or if you understand it.
All I want is that you read it.
Because... when my life ends (not too soon. I'm not going to kill myself! But, just to be sure...) I want to be remembered. If you remember me as insane old wretch, it's fine. If you remember me as twisted victim of society or as a perverted lessie, it's fine. If you remember me as a loving girl that had some bad luck, it's fine too. As long as you remember me at all.
Because, worse than being incurably insane or to die is being forgotten.

My life story is nothing special in particular. Some strange events, but that's all.
For the sake of all who participated in my life and still are in it, I've changed all names and places. (Thus, if I write I was in Boston, I wasn't in Boston at all. If I say my old friend was Linda, her name was definately not Linda. K? The people I write of know who I mean. But there's no need to let anybody else know) Only my first and second name (Heather Lindsay) and Meredith are original. So don't go running around looking for any person mentioned in my story. They don't exist the way I describe them. (And some might only be part of my disturbed imagination)

And remember: I am demented. You don't have to believe me or take me too serious. If you don't agree with my opinions or you're feeling offended, don't flame me. I apologize, that's all I can do.

Nonetheless, have fun with reading my story. I suggest you start at the very beginning in September, 20th 1990.

I also will soon make normal lj-entries. Like anybody else. Just that you don't start wondering about the early entries from 1990 - 2005.

P.S.: If you're sure you want to read more about me, and if you want to add me to your friend list, you may do so. If I find the time, I'll add you to my friend list, too. I am not asking anyone to be my friend. But I am not denying anyone who wants to be it. You may comment to my posts freely as long as you keep a certain level of manners. I can't promise that I will respond. But be assured, I'll read anything you write - so I will remember you as you remember me. The worst thing is to be forgotten. If you don't forget me, I won't forget you.

Luv, Heather

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	Heather's Cookie List
Part I	Normal Cookies	Those are regular cookies, just for the taste of it. Feed it to your plaything to invoke some trust. ^^
Choco-Cookie	Cookies with chocolate chips	Lots of sugar and chocolate, for the sweet playthings
Sour cookies	Cookies with sour creme	Tasty. For the playthings with 'special flavours'.
Fruit&Berry cookies	Sweet cookies with fruits or berries	Banana cookies, strawberry cookies, blueberry cookies... almost anything your plaything likes.
Hot cookies	Spicy cookies with chili	Spiced and hot. Your plaything will ask for some 'drink'. ^^
Hollow cookies	Tasty cookies that are hollow.	Can be filled with any substance. If you know what I mean ;)
Exotic cookies.	Cookies with exotic spices, fruits and berries.	Sweet, hot and sour. Cookies surprise. Incridients are secret ;)
Enhanced cookies	Special cookies with grease and flavour enhancers.	Makes your plaything want more. Also good if you want your plaything to gain a little weight. Can be combined with any of the above.
Dissolving cookies.	Cookies that dissolve on the tongue.	Those cookies decrease the hunger of your plaything. Use it if your plaything ate too much cookies and must lose a little weight. ^^
Part II	Special Cookies	Special cookies with magic effects. These are cookies like those above, only with some 'bonus'.
Charming cookies.	Special incridient: Weak Love Potion.	Feed those to your playthings and they will love you even more. Heather's favorite beginner-cookie.
Love cookies	Special Incredient: Love Potion	Your plaything will fall in love with the first person it sees after eating it. Be cautious using these!
Baby cookies.	Special incridient: Animal's sperm&ovum.	Your plaything will "give birth" to an animal. Strange and macabre cookies. Be careful selecting the animal.
Illusion cookies	Special Incredient: Hypnotic spirit	Your plaything will have a hallucination. Either it will believe being something or someone else or it will imagine things. Your choice. Always fun! ^^
Remedy cookies.	Special incridient: Seraph feather	Your plaything is ill? Or a magic did not work on it? Give it one of those. Cancels all effects.
Mutation cookies	Special Incredient: Changeling heart	Physical changes to your plaything. Additional arms or another look. May even change the gender. If you're not satisfied with how your plaything is now.
Eat-Me cookies.	Special incridient: Gluttony spirit	Your plaything will do anything to eat most cookies you give to it. Very useful.
Aphrodite cookies	Special Incredient: Nymph's tear	Your plaything will be filled with lust. Use it carefully.
Random cookies.	Special incridient: Gambler's heart	Absolutely random. Nobody knows the effect. Can be dangerous!
Pet cookies	Special Incredient: Dogbone	Your plaything will be transformed into an animal of your choice.
Death cookies.	Special incridient: Reaper's finger	Instant death. Use only when you want to get rid of your plaything. It will be desintegrated, without leaving a corpse or any trace.
Personal cookies	Special Incredient: Target's hair	Personal cookie with a special effect, depending on the individual. Only feed it to the person it's supposed for!
More cookies.	Special incridient: ???	There are lots and lots more cookies which I still keep secret. If you have any ideas for cookies yourself, just tell me ^^

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